Redundancy

I cried when I knew I lost you, afraid I had lost it all and then I realized that losing you, didn't have to mean I lost me. Maybe, maybe if I had just looked away that first day you came towards me, everything would be different and my heart wouldn't be breaking right now. For now, im going to smile and make you think im happy, im going to laugh so u don’t see me cry, im going to let you go in style and even if it kills me, im going to smile. I cant believe im back on the same ground!!! I cant even apply the things ive learned before. Anyway, im gonna get through this. My family, friends are there for me, I know it. Best wishes to you.

Nobody

All my life I had been looking for something, and everywhere I turned someone tried to tell me what it was. I accepted their answers too, though they were often in contradiction and even self contradictory. I was naive. I was looking for my self and asking everyone except myself questions which I, and only I, could answer. It took me a long time and much painful boomeranging of my expectations to achieve a realization everyone else appears to have been born with. That I am nobody but my self. I think of life now as a play that I've written for myself, and my purpose is to have fun playing my part.

Epiphany

The sanctity that i found in your arms, it was false alarm and it burns, yeah it hurts. But im moving forward now. Thank you, coz' if its not because of you, i wouldn't have learned, i wouldn't have a story to tell and an ending to our so-called song. Our story has ended. Im breaking free now. Im ready to start a new chapter in my life. Yeah before im stuck at a dead end, but now im taking the other side, and im gonna take the next step alone and im not afraid. I believe that the best is yet to come. Ive been such a fool holding on to you. I'll just wait for the day where i forget who u are, and where your name sounds old and worn. Im not going to stress myself over you, im done.