worry, fret, concern, anxious, agonize etc.

For this blog, i was inspired by a friend who is killing himself with worry. I know, u might think is it a big deal? Well i think yes. Haha! We all worry, because worrying is just one indication of our human capacity to feel. We worry because we do not know enough. We worry about things we are unaware of, because we know that there are things that are extremely dangerous and situations that are totally beyond our control. So here is my point, worrying is not a sin but worrying could lead to sin. We sin when we do foolish things because of worry or when we allow ourselves to fall into too much worrying because again, such worries can become unbelief. Unbelief is sin. So to avoid creating sin, first eliminate the cause of worry, translate your worry into positive action. Second, to deal with worry, cultivate the spirit of thankfulness, thank the creator. Sometimes, or can i say always learn to live one day at a time to avoid too much worry. Confused? I mean get out of the past and leave the future alone, today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. Enjoy today, it is the only time you have, thats third. Fourth, do everything as act of obedience to God, leaving results in His hands. Bring your worries to Him. Consequently, we worry because we are finite and we know it. Yet to recognize our finiteness is to recognize our humanity. To worry therefore is human and it is not necessarily sinful but too much of it leads to sinful. Hope ya'll got my point! Thanks Mr. Girao.

boredness and loneliness

Dang! Killer boredness strikes again, yeah, if i feel bored, i feel lonely. I learned from a book that we have to express, not suppress our loneliness, but its freaking hard because i don't have anybody to express my loneliness with. But what did i learned just now because of boredness?? The first thing to do, if we are lonely, is not to deny it. If we feel lonely, acknowledge and accept it. We need to express our lonelines, and remember, it is not wrong to cry (definitely for us boys, i mean men. "Boys don't cry, men does.."). Well thats what i do. LOL. I feel crazy. Coz' sometimes, for every privilege we enjoy, we have to give up another, thats what loneliness do. Confusing ey? We need to remember, life is a continuous trade-off, i mean life requires that we give up something in order to gain something else. I learned (from a book) that when in certain situations, we realize that what we have given up is too costly for us to lose, then common sense dictates that if it still possible, we should reclaim what we have traded off. We should not allow our loneliness to overwhelm, paralyze or incapacitate us, instead, give ourselves fully to the task at hand. To conclude this up, we learn to cope by not denying our loneliness. Express it. Refuse to allow loneliness to paralyze us. So screw loneliness so it will screw boredness.

hurt = knowledge

I felt terribly hurt before, but what did i learned from it? First, we all get hurt, its part of being human, that having hurt feelings is a defense mechanism to protect us from an emotionally distressing situation. To avoid feeling terribly hurt, here are some things that i have learned. We must lower our expectations, because a good deal of our hurts has to do with our expectations. We expect to be reciprocated with good for the good that we do. Next is be at peace to everyone. We hurt others either by what we do or by what we fail to do and by what we say or what we fail to say. If we hurt somebody, we need a genuine apology, to clearly identify the wrong done and accept direct responsibility for what had happened. Refuse to be enslaved by tyranny of the oversensitivity is the next thing. If we try to please everybody all the time we will become slaves to the tyranny of those who are impossible to please. Somehow we have to draw the line between giving necessary attention to those we have hurt and in contrast, trying to massage the sensitive egos of the oversensitivity. Next is take the initiative for reconciliation and deal with hurt feelings promptly. When we allow a hurt to fester, we soon turn it into anger. When we allow anger to fester, we turn it into resentment. Resentment then becomes BITTERNESS and BITTERNESS turns into hate - hate of the one who hurt you. We should remember, hurt feelings are inevitable. Thankfully, they need not be debilitating. Hurt feelings could be overcome.

I want to thank the following persons for helping me overcome HURT:

Zari Bilon
Kelly Guanco
Ainz Tan
Heart Sanares
Mr. William Girao
My Family
and the CREATOR

confessions of a singer

I didn't teach her fairly as i should have, if i made her feel subsequent best, i am sorry i was blind. She is still on my mind, now its a lonely time. I guess i never told her in our days that i was happy she was mine. I'm hoping that one day she will tell me that her love hasn't die. I don't know how will i walk away from all the memories that we shared together, how do i not miss u when you are not around? I can't pretend that i ' asleep when my tears starts to fall, i can't get up, every night i miss you. I'm barely hanging on, now all that is left to me is what i pretend to be, i'm broken up inside, seeing you kills me. I don't know where to go. Now for the last part, your turn to confess... Just tell me you are releasing me... I'll go.

missing me...

Today was an a OKAY day for me. It has been long and kinda boring as usual... They say, we must enjoy every single of our lives, well frankly speaking [rather not] i did not, well yeah, it was like on and off thing. I don't know what is wrong, what is missing, what did i missed or who to miss whom, confusing hey, i know right! Hmmm... But one thing is for sure, i need friends. Why is it if i am ready to share my thoughts, they are not here to lend me some ears. Dang!
What is happening to me? I am being too emotional these days. I want to be me again, the jolly and funny me who can smile from the bottom of his hypothalamus. Yeah, i know what are you [readers] thinking right now, i am faking some smile just to pretend that i am happy, well i have to smile... even if it is a sad smile, because i know, sadder than sad smile is the sadness of not knowing how to smile. I just miss myself. Forgive me.

finale with a period

Its been a long time since i posted my last blog here... Anyhows, here it is... Getting over a break up is always going to be hard but to put you on the right track there are some little words that can lift your spirit and push you in the right direction. Wherever you hear them, those few little words, can often make you smile again. Well i guess ya all know what this thread is for right?or i guess not? Anyways, yeah, i and she are already none but friends. I don't want to make this blog too long for you guys to read, so i will wrap this up by this, if you break up with someone or someone breaks up with you, it is only because there is someone waiting for you. Got it? Now thanks for the time ya all spend reading this. Till next blog.

CHANGES can help our SOCIETY

Me and my two of my classmates have searched and conducted a survey about our society and how it will change and affect by a single course of action. In our interview and survey, many of the students, worker, etc. believes that the changes in oneself can make a difference in our society and they are open to changes that will help not only the society but the world... After that, we came up to this conclusion:

Changing can be agonizingly slow and hard-noticed, but the best thing about change is that we can always work towards more. If you are awake and aware in the modern world you're probably trying to change your life and your situation. That's an extravagance we
have in our society. We have time to try to change ourselves as people for our society. Let me share what i have learned about these movies ("The New Guy", "Whatever It Takes", "Schindler's List"--these movies are different genres, but it taught me the different roles of people in our society), our society is a changing place, it is constantly developing new characteristics in culture, visual aspects and history. As it changes, many views are lost and may never be found again.
We have to start changing for us to see what we want to see. This is not an easy task, because we are the creatures of habit, we follow the flow of thought and behavior that we have carved over the course of many lives. Changing must begin in us. Like changing a simple bad habit may change and create a big transformation to our society, and to replace bad habits, with better ones, we need to keep a constant watch on what is going on our minds and how we act and react in our daily lives, and to check ourselves whenever we find ourselves indulging in some selfish or undeserving thought or deed. The problems that afflict or upset our society — from drug addiction and violent crime to economic exploitation and the destruction of the environment — are generally symptoms of more deeply rooted causes. The way we act reflects the way we think. Most we can do is change ourselves, even though you are a leader, a parent, a teacher, a pastor, a worker abroad or locally, an artist, a servant, or a student. We have to screech truth, justice, honesty, and oneness. Let us remember that country’s oneness is the country’s integrity, and without these, no government can be trusted, and when there is no trust, governance worsens into subornment or corruption and compulsion. So to wrap up this blog, we can change for the better or we can change for the worse, when we change for the better, we help improve our society, it’s like this, changing ourselves is changing the world. So don’t wait for tomorrow, let us start today.

Acknowledgments:

Sandy Francisco-photographer
Ywok Francisco-model


Contributors:

Jefferson Barte
Giller Mojica
Jamell Salvador

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button..learnings.

I watched this movie with Sandy and Lorraigne. "Life doesn't work this way. We are an observer of our passage, and so are others."- i felt after watching the movie... The only constant in life is change and it happens whether driven by fate or chance. One delicious scenario provides an explicit example as a car accident results from a series of small, seemingly unrelated interim incidents. Remove any one and that accident would not have happened. And, take away the accident and the rest of the movie would have moved on a different path toward a alternate ending. Life is like that. We never know whether any given action will vanish like a stone tossed into a pond or whether the ripples of that toss will build into a tsunami... What Button shows is that Ben is ultimately not the hero of his own life or his own movie. He gets inside our head, that's for sure, but, frustratingly, we never get inside his. Really nice. Great movie.

random random

Its another year for me, and am still finding what really can make me happy. Yeah, you might ask 'are you not happy with your life?'... I am, I have my mom, my brother, my dad (though he is not here, because he is working abroad, i can still feel his presence), am with my girlfriend, there's my cousin whom i love to play with and my friends whose there to support me and am so thankful with that. But still, there's an empty room in me thats need to be filled out with somethin'. Something that will make me complete or whole.
Theres a lot of things in my head right now. I am confused. A lot of questions are popping out. Its so random. I can't even pull one and answer it. Damn. Hard.
Shocked? (for all the HUMANS who knows me) I may seem easy going person, but deep inside, am screaming for answers. Dang! I guess, right now, I am in my most difficult stage, finding my self, and finding my purpose in this world. Yeah yeah, i know, its too cliché, but hey! I don't give a damn, this is my blog. LOL.
Where is my voice of reason now? Is it lost because i forgot i have one?
Now, for the reason that is it lost, am all alone, left by the last angel (my inner voice) that already flown. I am so lost.